I made the out-of-the-blue discovery yesterday that an old ex-boyfriend is now married. I don't know for how long, or to who (though I have a guess), it was just one of those random facts you run across in life. I was kind of surprised by the way it made me feel-- sad, sort of upset, a tad bitter. Obviously I have moved on to bigger and better things and I haven't been pining away crying over this guy for the last six years... so why did it get to me so much? And is that ok?
For me, it begs the question of whether there's a statute of limitations on feeling feelings over people you used to be involved with. Part of me says it's a little silly to be upset over someone from such a long time ago, who was not the right guy for me. But there is a bigger part of me insisting that I can always be bitter that he experiences even a second of happiness because he crapped on my heart. And then went on to date someone far less attractive.
I think my conclusion is that it's ok to be unhappy that someone who promised certain things to you and then took them back has apparently now promised them to someone else and meant it. Everyone's been there, I suppose, so I suspect I'm not the only one who's had to pull out Christina Aguilera's "Fighter" (or your angry music of choice, I also enjoy "You Oughta Know") and blast it at top volume. I'm not saying I would have done things any differently, knowing how it would turn out... still, sometimes I friggin hate feelings.
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